Every morning we get up from our bed. Take shower and stand
before the mirror to get dressed and get going. But then there are also days
when we stand before the mirror and see beyond our face. We take a glance to
our soul to realize that after all it is not as luminous as it should be. It is
not the same illuminating object as depicted in movies that dispel darkness. We
have always known that our soul is a source of light, our guiding star. We have
seen in videos that when the soul leaves the body it leaves as an aura of brightness
and energy. But is it really that ways? Or we chose to ignore it? There are
days when we feel that we are at sea. Our inner spirit has gone off course and
we are lost and tormented. Where on these days, when we feel captivated and
chained by our thoughts, does this brightness goes? Where is this guiding star
on days when we are really looking up to it? When we are confused and lost in
the quest of finding ourselves does this illuminating aura disappear?
So on one of these days, standing before the mirror that we
realize that our soul is not the ultimate godliness that links us to our
creator. It is too lost and wandering in the tempest of who am I? It is too
asking itself what is my purpose of living. Baffled and flustered we call up
our friends and our parents to find the answers. We pray and read books to come
out of this darkness. But does that really help? Do we realize that it is us
who knows ourselves the best? Do our doubts make any sense to the people with
whom we are discussing it? Can they help us at all? I am sure they want to help
us and release us from the spiritual agony we suffer; but are they able to? Indeed
their words do clam us down for as long as a day or a week or may be a month. Because
soon the spell of the soothing words fades out and we find ourselves in the
same black hole as we were before. We are once again searching answers. We are
once again on our own. I might be overrating myself by saying that I understand
what Buddha felt when he left his family to search the divine enlightment. I am
sure he too had friends and family and gurus with whom he might have discussed
his queries. But he had to find salvation on his own which he did at the end.
Sadly but true; we have the dominion to unleash the power of
our soul. We alone can answer our question and understand our malaise. We might feel pessimistic, thwarted and
doleful when we vociferate that nobody understands us. But do we really need
the world to understand us? Because we alone are our master, our preceptor, our
guiding light and we have the answers to the questions; “Who am I and what is
my purpose of living?” To escape from this truth is abstaining from the responsibility
of looking for ourselves which our creator has bestowed us with. We can make ourselves
fly in the sky or dig ourselves in the purgatory. The choice is ours. It is only
a matter of fact that we realize this. The sooner we do the better.
